My informal life stories...
|Posted on August 26, 2015 at 6:50 PM||comments (1)|
How amazing are our minds? How powerful they are! Last year if someone would have said "our minds are so powerful!" to me, the first thing I would have thought of would have been how cool it is that we think to move or to talk, and it happens! But today, after having experienced anxiety, and after going through counseling for the last couple months, I have a whole new respect for my mind. J...Read Full Post »
|Posted on August 24, 2015 at 4:30 PM||comments (4)|
Sometimes you read someone else's words and your body fills with goose bumps and energy. You get what they get. You feel what they feel. You connect and know you aren't alone in that emotion or experience. That was me while reading 'Cold Tangerines' by Shauna Niequest months ago. I loved her outtake on life and it was a nice casual read. And then I hit the end... That's when I understood why my dear friend boug...Read Full Post »
|Posted on August 21, 2015 at 10:20 PM||comments (1)|
Proverbs 28:1 "The wicked flee when no one pursues, but the righteous are bold as a lion."
I woke up about a month ago and opened my Bible. This was the first verse I read. And then I read it again. I tried to read past it, but then came back to staring at it intently. Have I been acting out the wicked man's role, in a sense? Not dealing with my em...Read Full Post »
|Posted on August 6, 2015 at 11:50 AM||comments (4)|
Who am I? I was a girl, but I guess I passed the 18 marker and that made me a lady? When I passed like what, 25? Did that make me a woman? Or did I become a woman when I got married? Or was it when I had my first baby? And my name is Aly, but now that I'm a wife, is that my new name? We got married when I was 19 so I still felt like one of the 'girls' but suddenly didn't feel like I fit i...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 31, 2015 at 5:40 PM||comments (1)|
I have been so touched by emails, comments, texts and calls from people since I started my blog. Affirmation of love and that I'm not alone in feeling these things. Love for me regardless if you understand how it feels to go through anxiety like this or not. I want to simply say thank you! Thank you for reading along with my stories and showing up with encouragement right back at me. I'm so a...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 23, 2015 at 8:50 PM||comments (9)|
Psalm 30:5 "Weeping may last for the night, but a shout of joy comes in the morning." But what if you don't allow yourself to really weep at night? Then mourning comes in the morning.
My husband and I had been married a few years and we were both itching for babies. We weren't financially solid or have all our ducks in a row, but we were young and in love an...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 18, 2015 at 11:50 PM||comments (7)|
Kids cuddling on the couch- Instagram worthy. Kissing my husband in the rain- now that's cute! My dog jumping into the ocean- that's a fun moment. Sitting in the doctors office for the 15th time in only a couple months- not so cute. I wish that was an exaggeration. Yet that's the literal number and it isn't including the chiropractic appointments. Prior to this "season" I R...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 15, 2015 at 8:00 PM||comments (0)|
As I walk into Target- sweet, beautiful Target- I see people walking and shopping, talking and dreaming. But that's not me. Like a cat placed in water, all of a sudden this place of joy is like torture to my mind. I want out. I want to close my eyes. We can go one more day without toothpaste right? I know that I'm alright. Deep down I know that. Deep down I believe that this painful tension I feel throughout my head and shoulders isn't from me dying, but 'just' anxiety. I...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 13, 2015 at 8:00 PM||comments (3)|
I'm not worried. I'm not even really thinking. I'm simply praising the Lord during worship at church. When worship comes to an end, I sit down. Then I realize my eyes aren't focusing and I feel like I have an adreniline rush or that I may just fall over. Worship was not insane, we attend a really amazing small church. Worship is always so moving and powerful, but it's not like I was crowd surfing or in a huge mob of people. Just a solid time of worshipping ...Read Full Post »
|Posted on July 13, 2015 at 10:40 AM||comments (4)|
Comparison. As a woman, most of us understand the meaning of this word too well. I've had seasons where I've been confident, truly. But other seasons, in just simple words, its been pathetic. I spend time with my Lord, get ready, look in the mirror, and feel well. Then I leave, and look, and watch, and decide I'm nothing after all.
My husband and I have had a hard year. And through it, I've had a new guest inhabit my mind. Sh...Read Full Post »